Wasn't a good day to start with. Dealing with too many sensitive and emotional people around is not something I wanted to do today. This is not something I should be doing when I had woken up this morning with head and body aches since I had not been sleeping peacefully and properly since the last many nights. What more driving for more than two hours yesterday evening in a traffic nightmare. Leaving me with no choice ... I had to do it. I could be seen as a failure but I always believe in trying. Just that I sometimes feel sad when all my life I had been focusing on the well-being and happiness of all those around me. Never once I thought of my own. No matter how tired I am, how unwell I feel. It has always been me who would do the repairs to all damages done - sometimes it worked, sometimes it doesn't. But Allah knows best. Allah will always give me the strength, the way to work things out. That I believe. He knows I am capable - the reason why He chose me to go through all these. Amidst the clouds, I am wishing the rainbows shining through finally. It will be the best gift to start my Ramadan. Insyaallah...
Somebody misses someone real bad. She said - yes, ma, rindu sangat. That was a sincere and honest answer. I wish they both can breeze through the trying times, the challenges waiting ahead of them. She said this is her first love - her 'true' love. I believed her. I've told her to be strong no matter what - this is her choice. I can only advise - managing feelings is all up to her. She woke up early together with me this morning. Sejuk hati tengok dia solat, mengaji almost everyday and aku berharap mudah-mudahan amalan ini berkekalan. And I sincerely hope the person she loves will be the one who will always be her strength, provide her guidance and will forever be her inspiration. And she said - the one who will take her to Jannah. Insyaallah...
And here I am wishing for a better day ahead.
Dan di kesempatan ini aku mengucapkan selamat menyambut Ramadan al-Mubarak, selamat berpuasa dan semoga di Ramadan ini kita mendapat lebih keberkatan dari Allah swt. Mohon maaf zahir dan batin.
"When Allah loves a people, He makes them endure trials"
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