Birthday treats and gifts .....

October second two thousand and twelve - I took leave from work to celebrate with adik and she was off school as well.  Just the two of us.  Kakak was at school, abang at work and daddy was travelling.  Still it was a perfect outing for us.  We started the day with a very light breakfast.  Gave her so many options for us to spend time and celebrate.  As usual, she could never make up her mind.  My last suggestion - Sunway Pyramid.  Told her to agree failing which I'll just take her to Giant KD or KJ instead.  Ouchhh... that surely was not a birthday treat!  Because our weekends were normally spent in Giant Hypermart for grocery shoppings.  Birthdays must be special I supposed.  So Giant cannot be one of the option.  So we were off to SP.  Lunch at Ole Ole Bali.  Wahh... we ordered like we had been without food for a week!  We ordered cumi-cumi goreng (it's fried squids), nasi campur, fish and chips, es campur and wherever I went - my hot latte.  That was so much... Ended up not finishing all our food except for the drinks.  Somebody's going to get hungry later so we had the unfinished food packed.  

It was a perfect, exciting and interesting outing.  It should be a perfect birthday celebration for her - birthday lunch, a blouse at Cache-Cache and a watch. Opps... and a few slices of Secret Recipe cake.  We were off to BK to meet my sis and share with her the cakes.  Kakak was also there.  And another simple celebration.  It was not so much a celebration - it was just talking, laughing,  and of course eating the cakes and our unfinished packed food from OOB.  Not to forget - more gifts - two pieces of clothing done via online shopping.  All for this special person....  And may she be blessed with finest things in life .... with hugs and love that'll last a lifetime.

 It was time well and worth spent.  Enough to make this special person happy.  Though she misses someone badly.

Second October ....

Happy 17th birthday to my dearest darling Marissa Yasmine.  Born  2nd October 1995 at Pantai Medical Centre, Kuala Lumpur.  She must know how much she meant to me.  She brought the happiness into our life.  I could not have asked for more.  Often I asked myself - where's my little girl?  Why does time flies so fast that this little girl of mine has grown up?  

MY, these years that so quickly fly will take you where your dreams are.  Follow your heart - reach out for your dreams and goals.  You will always be my source of pride and joy, no matter where this life takes you.  

May Allah's guidance and blessings be with you always.... 

With all my love... take care my dear.  Remember, dreams and miracles do come true.  Be strong, remember the promises....

Good luck ...

With 'beloved' sis and cousin 

All the very best to my dearest baby for her SPM trials which starts today.  Nervous kan?  Bet you are.  But always remember, with all the hard work you have put in, insyaAllah. Just focus, give your best and believe in yourself.  Plus a glimpse of your inspiration does help, right?  And my dear, all my doa for you always.  Once again, good luck.

And my best wishes and prayers also goes to all those sitting for UPSR, PMR and SPM 2012 examinations.  May Allah's blessings be with us all.

Iklan Raya Bernas 2012 - the best ....

Iklan raya yang sungguh menyentuh perasaan.  Ciri-ciri yang ada pada these two boys are real, bukan lakonan semata-mata.  Sekarang iklan ni dah ada kat TV.  Aku first time tengok kat youtube.  Memang aku menangis sebab sungguh sedih.  Seumur hidup aku ni lah iklan yang betul-betul meruntun jiwa.  Yang tak terasa apa-apa bila menonton iklan ni, sah lah dia memang keras hati. I am amazed, these two boys nampak macam dah lama kenal, tapi sebenarnya they all cuma jumpa first time masa nak buat iklan ni.  Budak-budak memang senang nak click  with each other.  Cuba kita hayati mesej yang disampaikan.

Hari ke 27 kita berpuasa.  Tinggal dua hari lagi insyaallah kita akan mengucapkan selamat tinggal kepada Ramadan.  Memang sedih.  Doaku mudah-mudahan ini bukan Ramadan yang terakhir. Moga diberi kesempatan bertemu lagi dengan Ramadan akan datang.  Di kesempatan ini juga aku mengucapkan Salam Aidilfitri to all.  Mohon maaf atas apa jua keterlanjuran selama ini.  Semoga segala amalan dan ibadah kita diberkati dan diterima Allah swt.  Special wishes goes to all my sisters.  Aku minta maaf dan minta halalkan segala yang termakan, terminum, ter-ambil, tercakap, tersilap kata di sepanjang kita semua membesar.  Semoga Allah swt mempermudahkan perjalanan kita semua.

Dah start cuti sekolah hari ni.  Earlier plan has to be aborted since I am not able to be on leave today.  Opps... aku merajuk dengan adik last night.  No, I am not ungkit-ing.  She must know that.  Whatever I have done for her is because I love her and want her to be happy.  Cuma aku tak boleh tengok orang yang tak boleh handle stress and certain situation in a right way.   While I am still around boleh la aku tegur and advice.  Remember my dear, all advice mesti ambil and sematkan kat hati supaya you know how to deal with situations.  Tak boleh you ok hari ni, esok dah tak ok pulak.  It doesn't work that way.  Anyway, I love you always.... I merajuk sebab I needed someone to talk to when I have too many 'bercelaru' things on my mind.  Kakak sorang tak cukup.  I needed you both...  And no, I am not ungkit-ing.  You must believe a mother's love ..... it's like an island in life's ocean, vast and wide....

"To believe is to know the value of a nurturing heart, and the beauty of an aging hand, for it is through their teachings we learn to love"

Life's struggles.....

Wasn't a good day to start with.  Dealing with too many sensitive and emotional people around is not something I wanted to do today.  This is not something I should be doing when I had woken up this morning with head and body aches since I had not been sleeping peacefully and properly since the last many nights.  What more driving for more than two hours yesterday evening in a traffic nightmare.  Leaving me with no choice ... I had to do it.  I could be seen as a failure but I always believe in trying.  Just that I sometimes feel sad when all my life I had been focusing on the well-being and happiness of all those around me.  Never once I thought of my own.  No matter how tired I am, how unwell I feel.  It has always been me who would do the repairs to all damages done - sometimes it worked, sometimes it doesn't.  But Allah knows best.  Allah will always give me the strength, the way to work things out.    That I believe.  He knows I am capable - the reason why He chose me to go through all these.  Amidst the clouds, I am wishing the rainbows shining through finally.  It will be the best gift to start my Ramadan.  Insyaallah...

Somebody misses someone real bad.  She said - yes, ma, rindu sangat.  That was a sincere and honest answer.  I wish they both can breeze through the trying times, the challenges waiting ahead of them. She said this is her first love - her 'true' love.  I believed her. I've told her to be strong no matter what - this is her choice.  I can only advise - managing feelings is all up to her.  She woke up early together with me this morning.  Sejuk hati tengok dia solat, mengaji almost everyday and aku berharap mudah-mudahan amalan ini berkekalan.  And I sincerely hope the person she loves will be the one who will always be her strength, provide her guidance and will forever be her inspiration.  And she said - the one who will take her to Jannah.  Insyaallah...

And here I am wishing for a better day ahead.  

Dan di kesempatan ini aku mengucapkan selamat menyambut Ramadan al-Mubarak, selamat berpuasa dan semoga di Ramadan ini kita mendapat lebih keberkatan dari Allah swt.  Mohon maaf zahir dan batin.

"When Allah loves a people, He makes them endure trials"

Another day, another year passes ....

I am 50 today.  Happy birthday to me. 10 years ago, I said goodbye to my thirties.  And today, another goodbye to the forties.  Menitis airmata for this another goodbye.  Masih berpeluang kah aku mengucapkan yang sama in another 10 years?  Masa pantas berlalu - perjalanan aku menuju kepadaNya semakin dekat.  Semakin takut rasanya.  Di terimakah amalan ku selama ini?  Di terimakah  keikhlasan ku selama ini?  Di hitung-kirakah pengorbanan ku selama ini?  Aku hanya berserah ya Allah, Engkau yang lebih mengetahui.  

Pada sisa-sisa kehidupan ini, tiada yang lebih aku ingini selain dari rahmat dan keampunan mu ya Allah.  Berilah aku kekuatan dan tenaga untuk terus menjalankan amal ibadah ku sesempurna yang mungkin.  Kau ampuni lah dosa-dosa ku, dosa kedua ibu-bapa ku, suami ku, anak-anak ku dan seluruh kaum keluargaku.  Lindungilah kami di bawah rahmatMu ya Allah.  Bahagiakan lah anak-anak ku dunia dan akhirat.

Haish!  sedih pulak rasanya.  Tak leh, tak leh...  

Kakak kata - "You are turning 50, you should be already wearing kain batik and baju kedah at home. Tak leh dah pakai what you are wearing now".  Haish! Or maybe I should.  Tak pernah aku ada baju kedah.  Nanti aku minta kat mak.  Dia ada banyak. Namapun orang Kedah.  Tapi... ish, banyak la tapi nya.  Nanti lah aku cuba.  Office wear tak de problem - I have opted for baju kurung dah lama dah.  Aku suka pakai baju kurung - it is so 'comfy'.  Yang bahayanya, bila put on weight tak perasan sebab aku suka baju kurung yang besar2.  

Anak2 dara aku yang sungguh gemar berposing.....

Dua jejaka dalam hidup aku....

Terima kasih ya Allah atas segala nikmat yang telah Engkau berikan selama 50 tahun ini.... Selamat hari lahir kepada diriku yang tersayang....

Real mothers .....

Real mothers ............
.. don't eat quiche: they don't have time to make it.
.. know that their kitchen utensils are probably in the sandbox.
.. often have sticky floors, filthy ovens and happy kids.
.. know that dried playdough doesn't come out of shag carpet.
.. don't want to know what the vacuum just sucked up.
.. sometimes ask "why me?" and get their answer when a little voice says,                              "because I love you best".
.. know that a child's growth is not measured by height or years or grade ... It is marked by the progression of Mama to Mommy to Mom .....

Irfan, if you are reading this - the special wishes goes to your mum on her birthday - the special mum who is very lucky to have children like you and the rest.  

Marissa ....

Watching you grow over the years while sharing all our joys and tears.  Seeing you become the person who you are today, this child of mine who are so special to me in every way. Through these years, you have brought many smiles to my heart  - even through any hard times I was facing, you made it all worthwhile.  I will always be here for you - always right by your side, whether it be just to listen to you or to be your guide.  Please know that I can't lead your life for you and protect you from all harms, but my love will be forever embracing you as if you were in my arms - like it used to be.  

Keep your cool and stay focused in pursuit of happiness and success.  I wish you a good and a blessed life, my dear. Above all else, your happiness is so important to me and seeing your smiling face every day fills my heart and makes my day.  

You are the best.  Irfan, take care of her.

***She is on cloud 9***

roller coaster emotions .....

Rasa hati... sat gembira, sat rasa sedih tak tentu pasai.  Sat rasa nak gelak, sat tu rasa nak menangis.  Perasaan yang macam-macam.  Sat insaf, sat lalai balik.  Awat jadi lagu tu pulak.  Pelik sungguh perasaan ni.  Dah, dah.. jangan dok layan bisikan pelik-pelik.  Then reality sinks in... "linda, can I get the salary slips certified, please".  La, aku kat opis!  Ok, ok pi buat kerja.  It's going to be end of the day soon.  Have a restful and enjoyable weekend everyone. 

My take - 

Dealing with "living in circles" situation will always require a daily effort - a daily re-commitment to your values, daily meditation, daily renewal.

Mak....

Hari ni hari lahir mak yang ke 74.  Kena tulis dalam blog - nanti dia merajuk.  Lebih kurang macam ni lah katanya nanti "owhh... adik2 lain hang tulih ucap selamat hari jadi, mak hang tak tulih"!  Hence this posting and here it goes....

Mak - selamat hari lahir.  Semoga Allah swt sentiasa merahmati kehidupan mak dan moga sentiasa dikurniakan kesihatan yang baik.  Kita selalu cakap - "namapun dah tua, sakit-sakit tu dah biasa - janji dapat tenaga dan kekuatan nak beramal sesempurna yang mungkin, insyaAllah".  InsyaAllah, kami semuakan doakan mak.  Selamat hari lahir - SAYANGGGG MAK!!!!  

Mak rindu nak balik kampung.  InsyaAllah ada peluang nanti kita balik...

-rumah mak yang dia rindu sangat nak balik-

Birthday wishes ......

Sisters, apologies for not being able to post the wishes individually on the respective dates. The January & February birthdays are all now in one post.  Better than none .......

28th January - Zurina Hasbullah.  Happy 43rd birthday, sis.  Things change over the years.  Distance separate us.  But the special bond we share will always keep us forever close.  Mudah-mudahan segala urusan mendapat redha dan keberkatan Allah swt.  Dan semoga sentiasa berbahagia di samping keluarga tercinta.  

4th February - Haiza's 46th birthday.  All the special thoughts for you and the special wishes for the finest and the best things in life.  You deserved it.    Special thanks for the sweet memories of us growing up together.  Happy birthday, dear and guess you had enjoyed the day.  

7th February - happy 38th birthday my dearest sis, Sharosniza.  Semoga sentiasa dikurniakan kesihatan yang baik, kebahagiaan yang berterusan dan semoga semua yang diimpikan tercapai.  Thank you for being one of the best ones around .  May Allah bless you always, my dear.    Hope you like the birthday prezie though it was not a surprise!!

To all my sisters ;

Thank you.  I am so blessed to have sisters like you.  

Birthdays...

Syazlina with her three boys... Nafiz, Irsyad and Ihsan

WISH FOR A BLESSED BIRTHDAY.....

Soffeya .... sweet princess

Soffeya's favourite ...

Syazlina Hasbullah, the youngest of our 9 siblings - born 4th January 1980.  Selamat hari lahir - manfaatkan segala kurniaan Allah swt sebaik2nya.  As one of your big sis, I wish you a blessed life with your loved ones.  Treasure each and every precious moments.  Make the best of all - pleasant and unpleasant ones inclusive!.

Soffeya - 4 years old today. Will get you your favourite - Hello Kitty cafe miniature.  Moga terus membesar menjadi anak yang baik, anak yang solehah...insyaAllah.  Happy birthday, sweetie...

Salam Maal Hijrah 1433H

Lagu Maal Hijrah - Al-Ajiba

Satu Muharam detik permulaan
Perkiraan tahun Islam hijrah
Perpindahan Nabi dan umat Islam
Dari kota Mekah ke kota Madinah
Atas keyakinan dan iman yang teguh
Kaum Muhajirin dan Ansar bersatu
Rela berkorban harta dan nyawa
Demi menegakkan Islam tercinta

Hijrah itu pengorbanan
Hijrah itu perjuangan
Hijrah itu persaudaraan
Hijrah membentuk perpaduan

Hijrah itu pengorbanan
Hijrah itu perjuangan
Hijrah itu persaudaraan
Hijrah membentuk perpaduan

Oleh itu mari semua
Kita sambut maal hijrah
Tingkatkan semangat tegakkan syiar Islam
Untuk sepanjang zaman

Satu Muharam detik permulaan
Perkiraan tahun Islam hijrah
Perpindahan Nabi dan umat Islam
Dari kota Mekah ke kota Madinah
Atas keyakinan dan iman yang teguh
Kaum Muhajirin dan Ansar bersatu
Rela berkorban harta dan nyawa
Demi menegakkan Islam tercinta

Hijrah itu pengorbanan
Hijrah itu perjuangan
Hijrah itu persaudaraan
Hijrah membentuk perpaduan

Hijrah itu pengorbanan
Hijrah itu perjuangan
Hijrah itu persaudaraan
Hijrah itu membentuk perpaduan

Oleh itu mari semua
Kita sambut maal hijrah
Tingkatkan semangat tegakkan syiar Islam
Untuk sepanjang zaman
Untuk sepanjang zaman

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Marilah kita sama-sama menghayati pengertian hijrah.  Mudah-mudahan kita dapat menempuh tahun baru 1433H dengan kekuatan iman dan penuh ketakwaan untuk berhijrah kepada yang lebih baik dari sebelumnya.  To all my sisters, Seha, Haiza, Nana, Syaros, Imi & Ina - semoga kita sentiasa dibawah lindungan Allah swt dan mudah-mudahan kasih sayang kita berkekalan hingga akhir hayat.  Maaf zahir dan batin.  

Salam Maal Hijrah and salam sayang  to all.

"Tidaklah seseorang mukmin itu melainkan ia menjadi lebih baik dari sebelumnya"

Lyana Inessa Azril ...

2 year-old Inessa

Engineer in the making... InsyaAllah

'sweet' as always... cuma tak sweet bila naik angin!

Inessa  adik (who is way much taller than her)! 

Siannn....Amir  

Inessa dearest, happy 21st birthday.  Not wanting to write mushy-mushy stuff coz you are not the mushy-mushy type - wishing you the best in everything you dream for.  Thank you for being the best - the best daughter, my bestest friend and 'partner-in-crime'.  Kesian, adik.  She always said I love you more, but I told her, love you both equally.  Opps... lupa... and abang too.  But this wishes is specially for you - so let me just tell you - I love you, my dear.  May Allah bless you with the best always... 

With gratitude, all life appears as a blessing - 

without gratitude, all of life is perceived as a burden.

- Jonathan Lockwood Huie

Edrie ~~~

Edrie dearest, already late ... I need to go to sleep.  Your beloved girlfried, Marissa is still wide awake, waiting for me to 'garu' her.  But I need to publish your birthday wishes and hope this is special enough for you.

Edrie, wishing you a most wonderful birthday ever.  May Allah bless you with the very best always, showering you with success and happiness ~ dunia & akhirat.  May all your wishes come through ... Remember, I will always be here for you.  

Happy 15th birthday, my dear...

Best wishes ....

SPECIALLY DEDICATED TO MY DEAREST NEPHEW, EDRIE AZRIFF WHO IS SITTING FOR HIS PMR EXAMINATION TODAY. GIVE YOUR BEST, MY DEAR. AUNTY AKAN SELALU DOAKAN EDRIE. MAY SUCCESS BE WITH YOU ALWAYS. SEE YOU AT DD SOON.... WITH LOVE ALWAYS....EDRIE IS HERE

THIS SPECIAL GOOD LUCK WISHES ALSO GOES TO ALL PMR CANDIDATES. MAY ALLAH BLESS YOU WITH SUCCESS AND HAPPINESS ALWAYS. SELAMAT MAJU JAYA ....

“A lot of us would like to move mountains, but few of us are willing to practice on small hills.” ~ Anonymous

Birthday girl....

Adik celebrated her 16th birthday yesterday (October 2nd). The grandma did a 'birthday do' for her and cousins Haiqal & Airil on Saturday (Airil on Sept 30 and; Haiqal on Oct 1). Adik, hope you have had a good one. You have been a wonderful, wonderful girl. I love you so much. Mummy always cakap, 'ni anak syurga mummy'.. InsyaAllah, you will always be. Mummy doakan adik berjaya dunia dan akhirat. Thank you for being the best. Marrisa Yasmine is here

"It's so good to know someone so special,
who shares my secrets, my laughter, my dreams and my cares,
Someone through good times and bad times, through the years
Thank you my dearest baby....
Happy sweet 16 and may Allah bless you always."

Selamat Hari Guru

To all teachers out there ... Selamat Hari Guru. Thanks for being a great inspirer. You have inspired and added meaning to all our lives ... thank you. May Allah bless you with the best, always.

Mothers Day .....

Hope weekend had been good, especially those who had celebrated Mothers' Day yesterday. I had a wonderful Saturday and Sunday. Had evening tea at OTWC BK with my sisters and mak on Saturday, then had dinner of maggi goreng, also with them. Sambil sembang, sambil minum kopi. Jenuh tuan rumah dok refill coffee! Since hubby was away travelling, took opportunity to sleep over at my sister's in BK. Her hubby was also away. So it was ladies' outing and sleep over. Opps.. plus one boy (my nephew). It was a total fun - we chat-chitting and gossiping and also dok melayan my niece Soffeya till wee hours. Si-kecik ni seronok dapat 100% control of my iPhone, selalu the brother yang conquer. Lepas subuh, ingat nak balik tapi letih punya pasal continued with a short nap. Then the chat-chitting continued over breakfast. Mak pun nampak happy sangat-sangat. Honestly speaking, it was the nicest and most memorable mothers' day celebration for us. - walaupun without 'expensive' dinner or lunch. It was nice to be able to make mak happy. That was us - dapat jumpa macam ni pun dah cukup. Especially me, when my weekends are mostly tied-up. Whenever I can, I will make a point to visit mak. I left BK at almost 1.30 pm after my other sis from Kajang arrived with her family. Had to join my in-laws for mothers' day lunch at Raju Banana Leaf Rest. in Jalan Gasing. Another round of celebration! Letih dah.. Hope it is not too late to wish all a happy and a blessed Mother's Day.

Birthday...

Special birthday greetings for my dearest sis, http://pokoknyior.blogspot.com May you be blessed with all that your heart desires, insyaAllah. Thank you for being the wonderful sister and most of the time as a friend. I treasured all our times together and all the conversations that we have had. Thank you. There's this special kind of freedom sisters enjoy - the freedom to share the innermost thoughts - the freedom to ask for favors - the freedom to show true feelings - most of all the freedom to simply be ourselves. Chance makes us sisters, hearts makes us friends. Happy birthday, dearest sis. I pray and wish for your happiness always.