Just another day ....

We lived to see another day in this blessed month of Ramadan, alhamdulillah.  Bagaimana Ramadan kita setakat ini?  Tanya diri sama ada Ramadan telah menjadikan kita insan yang lebih baik.  Doaku setiap hari mudah-mudahan diberi kekuatan dan tenaga untuk melakukan segala ibadah sesempurna mungkin.  InsyaAllah...

We were at my SIL's place in Pinggiran RP yesterday for buka puasa followed by maghrib, tahlil, isyak and tarawih.  Biasa lah bila berkumpul ramai-ramai macam tu, takkan boleh balik awal punya.  Lepas tarawih, minum teh tarik  and sembang-sembang sampai pukul 11.45 baru semua nak bergerak.  Aku punya la letih.  Kakak dah lama masuk tidur kat guest room - 9.30 dia dah k.o.  Adik towards the end pun dah tak tahan.  Anyway, tak boleh la complain kan.  Dah nak ber-silaturrahim, kena la ikhlas.  Reached home 12-ish.  My  Monday ended almost 1.30 am which is already Tuesday.  Sejak dah bukan superwoman, memang the body cannot take it anymore.  Bangun nak solat and sahur macam nak putus segala urat-urat and sendi - punya la letih.  Today is my MIL's birthday.  Celebrating (for buka puasa) at Restoran Tirai Ratus in Section 3, Shah Alam.  Never been there, so cannot expect anything.  Personally, I do not fancy a buka puasa buffet.  Two main reasons.  One - I am not an 'eater'.  I can eat only a very small portion.  Memang rugi kalau bawak aku makan buffet.  Two - aku tak suka makan dalam keadaan kelam kabut.  Kalau buffet time Ramadan gerenti kelam kabut.  Especially kalau restaurant full house.  Then nak rush gi solat maghrib.  Haishh... pikir ni pun aku dah jadi stress.  Awat la lagu tu...  

Had conversation this morning with my sister who is also my best friend sejak kami kecik2.  I miss her.  I miss talking to her, sharing problems, worries, hopes, tears and laughter.  She is my 'life reference book'.  Thank you.  


Somebody's not schooling today. Reason - nak finish off her add maths.  She asked if I love her.  Of course la adik oi.  Awak kan anak mummy.  Mesti la sayang.  Tapi kan....... 


And she's looking forward to this weekend.  I do too.  Aku nak selesaikan niat aku yang tertangguh.  InsyaAllah....

"A calm and detached mind is the gate to true happiness"

Monday.....

Syukur alhamdulillah for another day in this blessed month of Ramadan.  Masuk hari ke-10 kita berpuasa dan mudah-mudahan amalan kita setakat ini diberkati Allah swt.

It was a tiring and hectic weekend for me.  Tiap-tiap minggu pun sama sebenarnya.  Tapi minggu ni besides hectic, it was a sad one.  Very early Sunday morning, Uncle Agus passed away.  Al-fatihah.  Got a call at 3.00 am.  En. hubby went with his sister.  Me and the girls went slightly later at about 4.00 with my BIL's wife.  Had a quick sahur before leaving the house and was at Selayang Hospital by 4.45 am.  Alhamdulillah, we made a right decision to be there to offer support to the family.  There was no tears initially, but when we were called in after jenazah siap di mandikan, I can't hold back my tears.  Tengok anak-anak and wife arwah cium him for the last time, memang sedih.  29 Julai 2012, terhentikan sudah perjalanan kehidupan Uncle Agus.  Semoga Allah swt mengampuni segala dosa-dosa dan memudahkan pertemuan ini.  After hospital we went straight to Masjid AlGufran in TTDI di mana jenazah diletakkan sementara tunggu urusan kebumi.  Alhamdulillah dapat solat subuh berjemaah and also solat jenazah.  We were there till 11.00 before jenazah di bawa ke Tanah Perkuburan Bukit Kiara.  Alhamdulillah segala urusan selesai by 12.30.  Disebabkan kami semua berjubah hitam dan hari pun start panas, makanya perlu balik rumah, tukar baju and pejam mata kejap sementara tunggu zohor.  Letih tak payah cerita... Lepas berbuka and maghrib, we went to my aunty's house for isyak, terawih and tahlil.  Selesai semua and balik rumah almost midnight.  The day ended by 1.00 am and that's already Monday.  Another tahlil tonight and will be done at my SIL's house in Pinggiran RP.  Will be there to support, again.  Harap-harap tak lewat sangat malam ni.  

Anyway, penat tak penat, it's a working and schooling day for us today.  So masing-masing tak ada pilihan.  Still, I am glad that amidst all these hectic happenings, our life is quite in order.  Thanks, kakak and adik for all the help and support.  What do I  do without you girls. Adik takut aku tukar plan this weekend sebab aku kata tiap-tiap minggu  tak boleh rest.  This coming weekend pun sama sebab nak travel.  Takut dia....  No worries.  I made my promise.  You know I always keep my words.  InsyaAllah..... 

"Many people walk in and out of your life, but only the true ones will leave footprints in your heart"

Good Old Days....

Good and fond memories - how I miss those days.......

Good Old Days - Growing up in Malaya not Malaysia 

Dedicated To All those Born in 1940's, 50's , 60's 

Without any maids, our mothers cooked, cleaned and took care of the whole family. They still had time to chat with neighbours.

Everyone had candy floss, fizzy drinks and shaved ice with syrups. Diabetes were rare and aspirin/panadol cured all illness. 

We rode adult's bicycle to school, the richer ones had their own mini-bikes.  Ironically, we all had problems with our brakes, and after running into the bushes a few times, we learned how to solve the problem. 

Prefects were a fearful lot ...more fearful than the teachers. Detention class was like going to prison for a day. We had "public canning" in schools. 

NO ONE ever won the big prices on "Tikam". It was a scam but it did not stop us coming back for more. 

Motorbikes were rode without helmets. It was rare to ride a private taxi. Taking a bus was luxury - we either cycled or walked everywhere. 

We drank water from the tap and NOT from bottles.

We spend hours in fields under the sun, playing football or flying kites, without worrying about UV ray. It did not affect us.

We roamed free catching spiders and did not worry of Aedes mosquitoes.

With mere 5 pebbles, girls played endless games and with a tennis ball, boys ran like crazy for hours.

When it rained, we swam the drains and canals to catch "ikan keli", none of us were dissolved in rain.

We shared one bottle of soft drink with friends, NO ONE actually worried about catching anything.

We ate salty, sweet and oily foods, bread had real butter and sometimes condensed milk. We enjoyed very sweet coffee, tea, and "ice kacang" but we were not obese because....... WE WERE OUT PLAYING ALL THE TIME!!

We left home in the morning and played all day till hunger drove us back home. When needed, our parents knew how to find us. NO ONE actually watched over us and WE WERE ALWAYS  SAFE.

WE DID NOT HAVE HANDPHONES BUGGING US. We rode bikes or walked over to a friend's house and just yelled for them! 

We did not have Playstations, X-boxes, Nintendo's, multiple channels on cable TV, DVD movies, no surround sound, no phones, no personal computers, no Internet. WE HAD FRIENDS and we went outside and found them! Our TV was black and white.

We fell out of trees, got cut, broke bones and teeth and we still continued the stunts.

We have not heard of the word "Bumiputra". We only knew our friends by names. Their parents were Pak Cik and Mak Cik or Uncle and Aunty.

In badminton, we did not change the shuttle as long as it was in flight. Regardless of how many feathers were left in the shuttle, our game continued... but still Wong Peng Soon and Punch Gunalan made us proud in Badminton. 

Match-boxes were always "chilly" or "king kong" brand...to own a box of matches from a hotel was something great. 

Regardless of whether we could afford one, we always knew Maths tuition was $10.00 a month.

We felt pleased to see a policeman and we were always eager to tell police everything we saw. 

Morris Minor and Volkswagen beetle were on our roads...driven alongside Kingswood, Vauxhall, Opel and Chyrsler. Executives of companies drove Peugeot 504. Japanese cars were considered "inferior". There were no traffic lights only roundabouts. 

The whole kampong came together during kenduris and all took turns to "kacau dodol". Chinese, Indians and Malays were all part of kenduris and all of us spoke Malay.

Our favourite local performer was Rose Chan and the Beatles were the most popular band. John Wayne's westerns on Sunday Cheap Matinees were 25 cent per show. 

Malay weddings had joget sessions in the night, it was the only time to ask a Malay lady for a dance.

Ketupat were NEVER plastic wrapped.

Football was played barefooted in torn-filled "padangs", rain or shine... but still Santokh Singh, Soh Chin Ann and Mokhtar Dahari made us proud, we actually beat South Korea in football.

JPJ testers instill fear and were highly respected ...

Susu lembu was delivered to our house by our big, friendly and strong "Bai" on his bicycle. All "jagas" were "Bai" and no place got robbed.

"Laksa" and "Putu Mayam" man came peddling. "Kacang Puteh" man walked balancing on his head top, 6 compartments of different type of murukus.

We played "gasing", made our own kites and had kite fighting with glass glued threads and made wooden guns and used seeds from plants for bullets.

Kangkong was free and easily harvested by riverside. "Kembong" was 30 cents a "kati" and nobody wanted "ikan pari".

When the Circus came to town, everybody went to see it. It was the best LIVE show I ever saw.

Usually we did not have to BUY fruits, they were self planted or given by neighbours or friends.

The idea of parents bailing us out if we broke the law was unheard of. Our parents actually sided with the law! Nobody knew about child psychology! Yet this generation has produced some of the best risk-takers, problem solvers and inventors ever!

The past 40 years have been an explosion of innovation and new ideas.  We had freedom, failure, success and responsibility, and we learned ......HOW TO DEAL WITH IT ALL!

And YOU are one of them!  CONGRATULATIONS!

Sharing this with others who have had the luck to grow up with such freedom before the government 'regulated' our lives for good !!

And with the kids so they will know how brave their parents were.

P/S -  Big font are used because of long-sightedness or hyperopia at our age. 

Friday .....

Alhamdulillah, dah masuk hari ke-tujuh kita berpuasa.  Selamat meneruskan ibadah puasa dan semoga kita semua sentiasa sihat dan bertenaga untuk melalui Ramadan ini dengan penuh iman dan taqwa.  InsyaAllah...

On personal note, I feel better though not totally recovered from the viral fever which I had it since last Sunday.  Maybe I should drink more plain water to flush out the virus.  That's what I thought.  These few days I had an irritable throat and quite bad phlegm.  Age factor I guess, kalau sakit demam  lambat la sikit nak baik.  Anyway, syukur alhamdulillah dapat  melakukan segala amalan fardu dan sunat dengan sempurna, insyaAllah.  Am trying to have a productive Ramadan as possible.  Our busy lifestyles can make benefits of Ramadan easily slip from us and we'll only regret it on the last day of Ramadan.  So let's not regret it this year and make the best of the benefits and barakah offered to us.   Remember that Ramadan is just not about making it to the iftar table at the end of the day, rather it is about attaining a new level of spirituality with Allah through our actions.  My doa that Allah blesses us with energy, blesses our sleep, blesses our time so that we can make the most of these blessed nights and reach maximum productivity throughout Ramadan, insyaAllah.

Our day starts as usual.  Sending adik to school, kakak and myself to work.  Finishing all work rather on time with little hiccups, alhamdulillah.  Planning to be at the surau this afternoon, otherwise will just stay in my little surau up here in my office, reading Quran.  Itu cita2 aku untuk tengahari ni.  Either one should be ok.  

Looking forward to our trip down memory lane next week Friday, insyaAllah.  Need to go back to clear a few unfinished business.  Hati tak tenang selagi tak buat.  Dan aku rindu sangat nak balik kampung.  And somebody should be looking forward to this trip as well.  For all she has been feeling these days, she should.

"Plan your plan, otherwise it will always remain a dream"

Bits and pieces .....

Another blessed day in this blessed month of Ramadan.  Syukur alhamdulillah.

Arrived home late last night - almost 11.45 pm.  Visited en. hubby's uncle who is critically ill at Hosp. Selayang.  Diagnosed with liver cancer stage 4, already spread to the lungs and both kidneys not functioning anymore.  We were told it could be any time.  He is too weak to undergo any procedure.  And his doctor has decided not to do any procedure on him and just let him be as comfortable as can be.  It is a good thing, at least dia masih sedar walaupun tersangat lemah.  For now, cuma doa saja yang tinggal. Alhamdulillah able to recite Yasin for him, able to hold his cold hands and recite syahadah together.  Half way baca Yasin memang aku sebak.  How time flies. Uncle Agus is one of those wonderful people I met in this life. Someone that I was very close to for the past 30 years.  Ya Allah, Kau ampunkan segala dosa hambaMu ini, diterima segala ibadahnya dan dipermudahkan perjalanannya menuju kepadaMu.  

Back at work.  In the office by 7.45 am.  Dah jadi lambat dah sekarang.  Sebab?  Adik tak rush lagi dah pagi-pagi nak ke sekolah since she no longer kena buat prefect's duty.  Dah handover to form four prefects.  Since dia tak rush, aku lagi la tak rush.  Tu yang jadi lambat.  But I think I need to re-program myself.  I need to be in the office as early as I did before.  Reasons yang tak masuk akal bagi orang lain tapi so applicable to me....  Tak de reason lah, aku cuma syok dapat masuk office paling awal, tu saja.


Anddd...the government is popular again.  Raya bonus for civil servants and pensioners.   Sharing the joy is 1.27 million civil servants and  657,000 pensioners.  Wahh... bestnya.    This contribution maybe meaningful to the low income earners amongst the civil servants, but the high income earners?  Hmmm....  Anyway, TPM kata spend wisely.  So, spend wisely folks!  Those without bonus macam mana?  Dah, jangan menyesak-kan otak berfikir.  Tu dah rezeki sesetengah orang.  Bersangka baik...

The smiling face.  Someone got you through it, right?




"Someone you love will lift the burden, lift the spirits, lift the gloom"

Moving on ....

Selamat meneruskan ibadah puasa dan mudah-mudahan puasa kita setakat ini mendapat barakah dan keredhaan Allah swt.

Cita-cita aku nak masak kelmarin tak kesampaian.  Sebabnya by the time balik from terawih at MIL's place dah almost 10.45 pm.  Ada orang kata "I'm schooling tomorrow" and orang tu pulak kata "I'm going to Kerteh taking flight at 6.00".  So we opted to do it on a more free-ier night.  So we just had bread and serunding daging for sahur.  Lepas solat at around 4.55 keluar hantar kakak ke Subang Terminal.  Adik slept all the way in the car.  Tired kot.  Anyway, all done and we arrived home by 5.50 just in time for Fajr prayer and getting ready to office and adik to school.  It was definitely a hectic morning.  Am thankful that I felt much, much better today, syukur alhamdulillah.  Back at work, the same things, just different day.  Complaining will take me nowhere.  Traffic after work for the past few days was terrible.  It was a definite nightmare!  Getting out of KLCC takes us more than an hour.  We left office after Asar and arrived PJ almost 6.45.  Tak boleh la nak complain, sebab everybody pun rushing home about the same time.  Orang lain pun nak buka puasa jugak kan.  Maybe I should just take the train.  Oh no... not during fasting month!  Sebab ramai sangat orang.  Haishh... semua tak kena.  Senang cerita, jadi surirumah lagi senang, orang lain bersusah payah bersesak dalam train, stress dalam kereta sebab jam, kita dok kat rumah.  Dah senang lenang dah, boleh masak satu buku resepi kalau nak.  How nice.  I wish my time will come soon... insyaAllah.

Somebody is sad today.  I had made a promise, so she should be looking forward.  

"Close your eyes, remember the best times, all your pain will go away"

The day today....

Wish for a better day today.  InsyaAllah.  In the office as early as 7.30 am.  Too tired to look at things to be done today.  Instead went on the net reading online papers.  None of the dailies interests me.  Maybe I should go into reading and understanding politics just to gauge my view and my stand.  Or maybe I should look into new recipes to cook more at home.  Yes, good idea.  And maybe tonight sahur boleh makan nasi kot.  Jangan sapa-sapa nak diet.  Wahh... bila baik demam ni ada cita-cita baru pulak.  Bahaya, bahaya.  Hari tu baru bercita-cita nak buat baked macaroni with cheese terus demam teruk.  Work today membosankan.  Had few meeting dates mixed up but I was definitely sure it was not my fault. I had all written up and documented on the dates given.  Just because some people think they are more powerful, they are right.  Ikut lah.  Malas nak argue.  Argue pun tak menang, buat penat dan sakit hati je.  Ok, dah, sekarang biar aku pikir pasal cita-cita baru aku - nak tengok recipes and to cook more.  Our sahur past few nights pun membosankan and I think I should make it more interesting. InsyaAllah....

Somebody's not schooling today.  Thus the smiling face.  And hopefully this smiling face is enough to make up someone's day today.

"Life is a journey and love is what makes the journey worthwhile"

The ups and downs...

Life definitely has its ups and downs.  I was down with a bad viral fever.  I was totally knocked-out yesterday.  Was not able to wake up at all till almost 2 pm.  Kakak woke me up several times, but I was too dizzy to move.  Wahh... weirdddd me.  All the while when I was down with fever, I can still move around, I can still do all house chores.  But yesterday, I was out.  But syukur it happened on a weekend and not on a work day.  Since I am not up to going out anywhere, kakak and adik  had no choice but to stay home.  Good thing is, they cleaned up their room.  Heard the screams, the giggles, the fights but I was not able at all the interfere - good for them.  Congratulations girls - you finally had your room cleaned and cleared!  See the 'hikmah' when I was sick!  Anyway, I am already at work today.  No choice, I have a task to finish off and the deadline is today.  Am in the office as early as 7.30 and had the task completed and signed off before 8.30.  Wahh.. I am so impressed.  But the fever, the body and head aches are still bothering me.  Everytime I cough, feels like the head is going to explode.  Yes, the same feeling I had yesterday morning.  Hopefully I can survive till end of the day.  

Last Saturday we went to Ramadan Bazaar at DD.  Wahh... banyak gerai dan orang sungguh la ramai.  Nak cari empty spots nak letak kaki pun susah.  Haishh..exaggerate la pulak.  Nak bagi tau terlalu ramai orang.  We only bought ikan keli (adik's favourite), sata (kakak's favourite), kuih lepat (aku cari lepat ubi, tak ada langsung, so ended up buying lepat pisang.  Tak sedap pun.  That was all we bought.  Bukan nak beli sangat pun, saja nak meramaikan and merasai kemeriahan bazaar Ramadan.  Every year pun macam tu.  Belinya tak seberapa pun.  Lagipun tak baik membazir.  

Buka puasa and terawih at my SIL's place in Pinggiran RP.  Masa tu aku sihat lagi.  But the symptoms were already there.  I knew it when I woke up for sahur.  Half of Sunday I was out, but petang gagah-kan diri ikut buka puasa at Pinggiran RP again since all the in-laws were there.  Lying down most of the time - woke up to just drink and solat maghrib, isyak and terawih.  

Yes, somebody misses someone sangat-sangat.  Conversations with the cousins last night said it all - it all revolves around him.  I promised her to balik Kedah.  I need to do few things at my hometown.  We'll see him there real soon, insyaAllah.

Planning to be at the surau this afternoon.  Kalau ikut hati dan ikut rasa yang sungguh tak sihat ni, mahu saja aku tidor, tapi aku kena lawan perasaan tu.  A friend ajak pergi solat zohor berjamaah and I said yes.  I will ignore this uneasy and unwell feelings.  I will manage .... insyaAllah.

Salam Ramadan dan selamat berpuasa.

"Remembering someone is easy - you can do it everyday.  Missing someone is the heartache that will never go away"

Life's struggles.....

Wasn't a good day to start with.  Dealing with too many sensitive and emotional people around is not something I wanted to do today.  This is not something I should be doing when I had woken up this morning with head and body aches since I had not been sleeping peacefully and properly since the last many nights.  What more driving for more than two hours yesterday evening in a traffic nightmare.  Leaving me with no choice ... I had to do it.  I could be seen as a failure but I always believe in trying.  Just that I sometimes feel sad when all my life I had been focusing on the well-being and happiness of all those around me.  Never once I thought of my own.  No matter how tired I am, how unwell I feel.  It has always been me who would do the repairs to all damages done - sometimes it worked, sometimes it doesn't.  But Allah knows best.  Allah will always give me the strength, the way to work things out.    That I believe.  He knows I am capable - the reason why He chose me to go through all these.  Amidst the clouds, I am wishing the rainbows shining through finally.  It will be the best gift to start my Ramadan.  Insyaallah...

Somebody misses someone real bad.  She said - yes, ma, rindu sangat.  That was a sincere and honest answer.  I wish they both can breeze through the trying times, the challenges waiting ahead of them. She said this is her first love - her 'true' love.  I believed her. I've told her to be strong no matter what - this is her choice.  I can only advise - managing feelings is all up to her.  She woke up early together with me this morning.  Sejuk hati tengok dia solat, mengaji almost everyday and aku berharap mudah-mudahan amalan ini berkekalan.  And I sincerely hope the person she loves will be the one who will always be her strength, provide her guidance and will forever be her inspiration.  And she said - the one who will take her to Jannah.  Insyaallah...

And here I am wishing for a better day ahead.  

Dan di kesempatan ini aku mengucapkan selamat menyambut Ramadan al-Mubarak, selamat berpuasa dan semoga di Ramadan ini kita mendapat lebih keberkatan dari Allah swt.  Mohon maaf zahir dan batin.

"When Allah loves a people, He makes them endure trials"

Hujan....

Yes, hujan lebat pagi ni, all the way to KL.  En. hubby still demam and after dropping him off dekat rumah mak dia, aku drove to KL dengan kakak.  KL kalau hujan memang sinonim dengan traffic jam.  So disebabkan traffic yang teruk, kami tiba area KL almost 8.  Nak cari parking lagi.  Found one across the office.  Ok lah.  The only problem is that we have only one small umbrella.  Nak tak nak, terpaksa lah guna berdua.  Half of my baju kurung basah.  Now dok sejuk kat office nih.  Apapun, syukur alhamdulillah dah tiba di office 8.35 am.  Nak complain lebih-lebih pun tak guna.   Cuma aku kesian kat kakak - kena ambik train from here to her office.  I should have dropped her off first.  Tapi traffic was bad for me to go further up and that would take much longer time for us.  Anyway, dah sampai office pun semua!  Lyana Inessa - esok kita park kat KJ tau... Cekik I kalau I ketegag nak drive ke KL jugak!  

Aku and adik fasting today.  Woke up at around 4.45.  Did the normal routine.  She was quiet the whole morning.  She missed him.  But she was trying to look ok because she had promised to be strong.  I asked her "did he miss you?".  She said yes.  And I also knew how she felt. I hope he is ok there too. Last night I told her - whenever you feel lonely, just remember all the great times and the nice surprises he has made - you should be able to fill the emptiness.  That's the beautiful reminder of him.  Guess that does not work for now, right?

Got to get back to work.   

"Life's full of tough choices"

  

Time flies .....

A day passes.  Time flies so fast.  Sometimes we wish that we can freeze the time, rewind the moments, reconstruct events.  Tapi tu semua mustahil.  Masa berlalu - fullstop.  That's why, make the best of what's given, what's laid down in front of us.  Always wake up to a fresh start, painting life the way we want on that blank canvas.  Having done the best, we can move on with no regrets.  We'd appreciate all lessons in life - turning the negatives into positives and enjoying journey of life and destination.

Talking about time .... Yes, time flies and it's a goodbye for someone today.  The hardest part of any relationship is when it's time to say goodbye.  But always believe, when the hearts are one, distance does not matter. They have made a big impact on each other's life, hope they'll remain strong.  Remember the good times, the best moments and look forward to the next ones.  I wish the best for all these wonderful people. 

"No matter how your heart is grieving, if you keep on believing, 

the dreams that you wish will come true"

Cerita cinta ....

Syukur alhamdulillah for another day of our life.  Trying so hard to be as 'sihat' as possible this morning as I have got to be at work.  Big boss is travelling to Germany tomorrow.  Had to see all travelling pack finalized.   And also uploading meeting packs into his MacBook.  Unable to do that yesterday due to some wi-fi problem plus receiving some revised papers to be uploaded last minute.  En. hubby came back last night with bout of fever and food poisoning.  He was in and out of washroom so, so many times last night.  Aku tak boleh tidor sampai pagi.  4.30 kejut adik for tahajjud.  Aku tak boleh nak bergerak pun - pening sungguh - kepala macam nak pecah.  Had to drag my feet off the tempat tidor memikirkan kena hantar adik ke sekolah, kena pergi kerja, hantar kakak ke tempat kerja.  And plus hantar en. hubby ke rumah MIL.  Mana boleh duduk rumah sorang-sorang demam macam tu.  Anyway, already at work by 7.55 am (lambat tu).  Hopefully my headache will be gone in no time sebab aku banyak kerja.  Can't afford to be sick at this point.  

Some love story.... asked him last night "how does it feel falling in love?"  He gave me an innocent and most correct answer - "undescribe-able".  Yes, I totally agreed.  How can you describe your feelings when you are in love?  You could never.  You could never be able to describe in words all the nice things you felt.  Yes, the feelings are undescribe-able and that is the best answer.  Her answer?  "It's a fairy-tale".  It is for her.  He is always with plans for wonderful surprises.  He is a good person.  She has always dreamed for a good person to come into her life.  For you both - take care of each other's feelings and remember you both have dreams to pursue - too many dreams.  My best wishes always.

"Wherever your dreams take you, wherever your heart longs to be - when you finally found the place, you will find all that you need "

Another hello... another goodbye...

Goodbyes are painful but hopefully they are not as hurtful as before.  Having faith and believing in miracles does help.  Wonderful surprises along the way brings thousands of  smiles and erases the thousands of tears.  Treasure the best moments spent.  Dream the best dreams.  All my best wishes to the most wonderful YOU.

And congratulations Irfan for the Sukma achievement.  Keep believing in yourself - we know you can do it.  You have the best support and a wonderful supporter.  You know who...  Keep it up.

Jatuh cinta .....

Dia jatuh cinta di pandang pertama
Senyuman terindah
Di saat mata terpaku, detik waktu terhenti
Terkenang di sepinya siang
Terbayang di sunyinya malam


Dia jatuh cinta di pandang pertama
Rindu bila berjauhan
Sunyi tanpa kehadiran
Tidak berdaya tanpa senyuman
Keluh kesah bila bersendirian


Dia jatuh cinta di pandang pertama
Jantung berdebar
Lidah kelu tanpa bicara
Hadirnya di setiap hela nafas 
Di setiap langkah kehidupan


Dia jatuh cinta di pandang pertama
Bercerita pada bulan, pada bintang
Tentang hati, tentang mimpi
Tanpa kata, tanpa bicara
Hanya menyampaikan rasa


Dia jatuh cinta di pandang pertama
Detik bahagia, kenangan terindah
Berjuta angan disimpul
Beribu mimpi digapai
Bersama membina istana cinta


Dia jatuh cinta di pandang pertama
Ya Tuhan, andai cinta ini diredhai
Abadikan-lah 
Dekatkan-lah
Jagai-lah
Sempurnakan-lah ...


Damansara Damai
14 Julai 2012

Friday, I'm in love....

Syukur alhamdulillah for another day of our life...

Title macam tragis sikit.  I am in love with Friday sebenarnya, sebab it's a final day of the week at work.  Wooahh..letih ya amat.  Campur dengan in and out of demam, memang meletihkan.  Harap weekend ni boleh rest sikit.  Lagipun en. hubby travelling till Monday.  Plan to visit mak kat BK tapi according to my BK sis, mak will be going to Kuantan.  Mak bad mood semalam - sangat-sangat bad mood.  Aku nak call pagi ni kena la baca doa dulu. Disebabkan mak nak ke Kuantan (tak tau confirm ke dak) plan tu jadi lain sikit lah.  Syaros, if you are reading this, walaupun mak tak dak, apa kata kita jumpa kat Syiok for lunch - Saturday?  Boleh? Tak boleh?  I thought you miss me... Minggu ni langkah boleh panjang sikit.

Friday, I'm in love.  Hmmm... tak payah elaborate.  Ada orang tengah angau.    Dia kata dia rindu. Tadi aku baru kata nak rest this weekend, tapi tak leh, tak leh.  Nak kena sit with adik to check and go through her revision status.  

Awal pagi tadi aku tak kejut adik, rasanya dia bangun sendiri sebab aku terjaga lebih awal 3.30 am - teringat belum pack baju-baju en. hubby nak bawak travel.  Sambil menggigau la dok packing pasai aku mengantuk sangat.  En. hubby left about 5.  Me and the girls left the house at 6.30.  Adik kata aku drive slow, so kena cepat.  Haishh... 

Anyway, I am wishing for a wonderful weekend and charting more wonderful moments along the way.  

"Making the best memories today for a meaningful and wonderful tomorrows"

Already Thursday....

Assalamualaikum wbt.  Syukur alhamdulillah for another day of our life.  Nothing much this morning.  Woke up as usual for the morning routine.  Wow, I did most of the house work pagi ni - kemas tempat tidor, prepare adik's morning supplement, clear fatso's litter box, replenish fatso's food and water, kutip all rubbish.  Haishhh... banyak tu! Ni mungkin sebab my emotional posting yesterday kot.  So literally, anak-anak tersayang aku wanted me to have that YESTERDAY I so wanted!  Well, that's ok.  For as long as aku masih berupaya, I'll do it.  So, no complaints!!  Adik was a little bit quiet this morning.  Risau kot. Anyway, wishing that someone the very best for his Sukma golf game today.  Am already at work - 7.32 am.  Banyak jugak kerja nak dihabiskan.  Big boss still on leave.  Semalam katanya nak datang office - hopefully he changes his mind today.  Esok je lah datang.  Scheduled a meeting for him tomorrow anyway.  

Cepat sungguh masa berlalu.  Pejam celik, pejam celik , dah tinggal seminggu lagi insyaAllah kita akan menyambut Ramadhan.  Mudah-mudahan kita sama-sama sudah bersedia untuk menjadikan Ramadhan ini lebih baik dari yang sudah-sudah.  

Maid aku yang dah more than 13 years with us dah balik Indonesia for good.  Sent her back last two days.  Memang dia nak balik pun katanya nak jaga his father and also arranging for her divorce papers.  So this Ramadhan we will be without her yang selalu dok prepare everything.  The new maid belum mahir buat kerja-kerja masak ni.  Aku guarantee my MIL will be so stressed out.  Yang susahnya, dia kalau stress akan jatuh sakit.  Haishhh...aku yang dok pikir ni pun dah jadi stress!  Ni lah jadinya, when we are at their mercy.  Tak dak depa, kita jadi susah pulak.  How I wish I am not working now!  Apapun aku tak mau pening-pening.  We'll have to manage it when the time comes.  Wish the best for everybody and everyone comes this Ramadhan....

Ok, nak start kerja dah...

"Always wake up knowing you have something to be thankful for - YOUR LIFE"

Emotional .....

Wonder how my mornings and my days would be without them... The flurry of activities since very early morning till the time we left the house.  The laughs, the stories for the day before we retire for the night.  Haishh.. takut aku nak fikir.  Bad enough abang is no longer together as he is now staying with my in-laws.  Walaupun I see him everyday and he calls everyday, tapi the feeling  is different.  I miss him around the house.  But this is one of the feelings I had to let go.  Reason is datuk and nenny alone saja kat rumah, kesian dia orang...sunyi.  And soon aku pun akan jadi macam tu...  Scary nya..  Dulu-dulu bila fikir letihnya nak manage anak-anak masa dia orang kecil, I used to say someday when they are grown - I don't have to do this, do that anymore.  Aku boleh relax, boleh have a time which I can call my own.  Just to calm down my tired mind and body. 

Now it is no longer this SOMEDAY I am looking forward - I sometimes wish they are  still the babies I cradled, I cuddled every night.  They are still the kids making lots of noises around the house, the kids making messes out of all the things they touched, the kids who listened attentively to the 'weird' bedtime stories which I usually made up before they go to sleep, the kids who laughed with me and the kids who dry my tears in my times of sadness.  I do not like this SOMEDAY anymore ... I will  be looking back and finding the YESTERDAY... and missing it.  And wishing this SOMEDAY never come and YESTERDAY never left....  

"Cherishing the yesterdays, living for today and dreaming for tomorrows" 

Note:   It was abang's 24th birthday yesterday.  Happy birthday my dearest.  May you be blessed with happiness and success, dunia dan akhirat.  And a big thank you for being the best.  I love you very much.... Hope you like the birthday gift.

Once in a lifetime....

Once in a life time

you will find someone

who steals your heart

who touches your soul

who completes your life

who is a strength that gets you through

in your times of defeat

in your times of despair

Once in a life time

you will find someone

who absorbs all your ramblings

who accepts all your flaws

who laughs with you when you are happy

who cries with you when you are hurting

who brings colours into your life

turning it into a wonderful journey

Once in a life time

you will find someone

who shares all your excitement

who fills the void you have felt

who holds your hand and makes your heart beats fast

who makes miracles happens

and dreams all come true 

Once in a life time

You will find someone

who shares your hopes, your wishes, your goals

who wants to share the future with you

who becomes a treasure in your heart

who becomes a part of your life

and make it worthwhile...

Once in a life time

You will find someone

who fascinates you

who is important to you

who is so special to you

who opens your heart

who helped you experience love and joy

that you never dreamed possible

Once in a life time

Comes a true love

A love with no beginning no ending

The sweetest gift of all

Cerita Sunday....

Syukur alhamdulillah for another day of our life.  Pada yang berpuasa sunat hari Isnin - selamat berpuasa.  Me and the girls, insyaAllah.  Aku paksa adik makan cereal and milk, takut nanti dia letih.  Kakak ok je with minum air.  I had my normal oats and air zamzam.  Pagi ni macam pelik sikit - aku rasa sungguh mengantuk!  Sangat-sangat.  Agaknya penat hujung minggu kot.  Anyway, a full Sunday yesterday - pagi keluar pi melawat kubur my aunty, then pi breakfast - tengahari after zohor fetch Irfan hantar ke bus station.  Dia  pi Kuantan - joining his teammates for Sukma games.  Orang lain dah pi, dia baru nak pi sebab ada golf game kat KL.  Despite the ins and outs - kakak busy kemas bilik.  Dia kemas dia bilik je and also tempat buku - aku yang buat semua around the house pun boleh siap dulu.  I managed to do the living hall, the kitchen, my room and doing all laundry.  Dia masih belum siap.  Kalau the reason is because  kami kena keluar, itu memang tak betul.  Sebab  sebenar adalah - terlalu banyak rubbish dalam bilik dia orang.  Taktik mengemas tu pun dah salah sebenarnya - sapa suruh keluarkan semua longgok atas katil.  Tapi aku biarkan je.  Kemas la sendiri.  Masa tunggu nak masuk zohor - aku telah panjat in between all the "rubbish" and baring, siap terlelap lagi!  Trauma sungguh aku tengok.  Bagi engineer mengemas macam tu lah.  Tapi kena bagi kredit jugak - at least dia sungguh bermotivasi nak mengemas.  And later  serah some parts to adik to help.  Aku kata kat adik - "I tau you tengah angau, tapi do something meaningful and take your mind off him for a while!".  Hmmm...that doesn't help.  Sambil tolong kakak sambil dok ber-texting.  The conversations, the usik-usik and kutuk-kutuk parts we had during sessi mengemas tu was fun.  Lively jugak despite of adik's "I miss him so much" look.  

After solat maghrib we drove out to beli dinner.  Opps... actually earlier part of the day, I told the girls - "malam ni kita masak pasta, tomato base pasta".  They all ok je.  Masa tu I was 98% sure aku nak masak dinner.  Sampai petang dah tinggal 2% je.  Last2 kami decide pi beli chicken kat McD.  Mula-mula we drove to McD SD - panjangnya queue.  Malas nak tunggu, then off we went to KD.   Sama gak panjang queuenya - we decided to order kat dalam je, cepat sikit.  Memang cepat pun.    Pssttss...ada orang snap pic McD sebab katanya ada kenangan dia kat situ.  Bukan ke sebelum tu dia ambik gambar PappaRich jugak!  Haishh...

Pagi tadi aku jengok dalam bilik dia orang, nak tengok perubahan.  Hmmm.....nevermind. Tak leh tulis, marah dia orang kat aku nanti.  Tak apa, aku bagi chance sampai this weekend...  Meanwhile good luck, Irfan for the Sukma golf game.  You are doing what you loved most - so enjoy it, ok.  Mummy doakan awak.

"Cherish all those precious moments, because someday they will be all that you have"