A new venture ....

Wah... tajuk yang memberangsangkan!   I am now taking this opportunity to announce my business venture.  Tak betul ke?  Tak pe kan... sharing the news je.  I am venturing into this wedding thing - teaming up with my brother-in-law and wife.  It started macam ni - my BIL was having difficulty nak cari a reasonable priced wedding planner untuk wedding anak dia.  Ada one guy we hired mula-mula charged us around 12 - 13 thousand ringgit.  Wow!.. Then tak jadi sebab mahal and that guy dok jauh.  Melaka la... jauh tu.  Nanti nak kena siapkan accomodation untuk they all lagi.  So with limited budget, my SIL scouted for others.  Found one in Shah Alam.  My BIL ni has always had his own ideas on designs and decorations.  Ideas dia selalu tak ngam dengan orang lain.  So he opted to engage the Shah Alam lady to do just few things.  She agreed for a price of 3,500.  Ok la tu.  My BIL came up with ideas to get his contacts in Indonesia to specially-designed the panels, the wooden and lava stone stands. For the son's wedding, he used his own panels, stands and lightings.  The Shah Alam lady only did the furnishings - like flowers, backdrops and also we used her expertise in pelamin design.  Seeing those that he had specially-designed from Indonesia, he came up with his usual brightest idea to start the wedding business.

He offered me to be his partner.  Aku??  Aku yang tak pernah ada business acumen at all.  Sungguh mengerikan.  Banyak malam aku tak dapat tidor memikirkan apa decision nak bagi.  Sungguh, tak, tipu, memang aku tak dapat tidor.  Last-last setelah berhempas pulas melawan kemalasan, ketakutan dan segala mala yang mengerikan, aku decided to have a go at this.  Wahhh... aku dengan bangganya telah agree!  Aku juga  dengan bangganya telah menjebakkan diri dalam situasi yang boleh mengakibatkan aku sekejap demam, sekejap kebah, sekejap demam, sekejap kebah.  Sungguh mengerikan!  Lepas aku kata ok kat my BIL, aku tetap tak boleh tidor.  Terbayang-bayang aku dok jadi businesswoman - wedding planner pulak tu.  It was so...not me.

Aku sebenarnya dari dulu and it has always been me yang so into charity works.  I love doing charities.  This is the real me.  Sungguh!  With so limited time, aku cuba jugak apa yang terdaya.  Cita-cita aku selepas pencen nanti, aku memang nak join a few charity groups yang aku dah shortlisted.  That has always been my passion, my vision.  Tak pernah berubah.  Cuma now a little bit off track sebab aku dah menjebakkan diri dalam situasi di atas.  Tapi insyaAllah, my passion and vision will be realized.  One fine day.... 

Opps... by the way aku masih bekerja - can't afford to leave my permanent job for now.  Dan aku dengan rasa ... ish, tak tau  la apa exactly aku rasa - mengumumkan our venture into a wedding business.  Semoga dipermudahkan Allah swt segala urusan.  Do visit us at http:\\qasehduahati.blogspot.com.  The blog will be updated accordingly.  For now, we'll start off with small jobs, one this coming Sunday 16th and we'll move on from there.  InsyaAllah.  So kawan-kawan, do give us the support.... and thank you for your time reading this.  I am being honest with all my words above.  Thank you once again.  Assalamualaikum.

Just another day ....

Was in the office by 7.20 am.  Mengantuk sangat-sangat pagi tadi.  Tapi lawan jugak rasa tu sebab nak settle-kan satu kerja yang dari semalam dok buat.  Yang tak settle-settle tu sebab aku tak boleh balance-kan  figures yang nak submit ke EPF.  Heran sungguh pasai apa figures tu tak balance, sampai malam tadi terbawak-bawak dalam mimpi.  Pekerja mithali - macam tu lah.  Anyway, awal-awal pagi tadi aku start balik buat dari mula.  Pening lah sungguh sebab most figures mencecah 5 or 6 angka.  Banyak tu.  Guna excel calculation tak balance, guna calculator (manually) pun tak balance.  Pelik, pelik sungguh.  I finally found the solution to the problem at around 9-ish.  Haishh...

Had a meeting last night at a friend's place with my BIL and wife.  Aku pi meeting malam-malam?  Weird... Because it was never me.  Nanti lah, aku akan cerita pasai this business in a special posting.  Hahh.. tu dia. Aku  telah menjebakkan diri dalam sesuatu yang sungguh menakutkan. 

Kakak dah start her classes.  She's already into her final year finishing her degree in Chem. Engineering.  Kejap je masa berlalu.    Dia dah tak duduk in campus.  She's now staying with my sister in BK sebab lagi senang berulang alik from there.  Lagipun that's her favourite place and favourite people.  Adik tak lama lagi pun akan tinggalkan aku juga.  Takut nak fikir masa tu.  For now dia lah teman aku - in laughter and tears.  Tapi sejak dia angau and stress with exams, aku kena take back seat kejap.  Sebab dia tak layan pun.  Tu yang kena start buat business tu!  Haishh...jangan cakap pasai business now, rasa trauma pun ada.  Aku belum pun call adik tanya pasal her papers (Physics and Bio 3) today.  Esok Chemistry paper.  Semua hardcore papers, mana dia tak stress.  Ini baru trials, belum real exam lagi.  Hope she's got the feel of it and more calm during real exam nanti.  InsyaAllah...doa banyak-banyak.  Butterflies? Still?  Mhmmm....

"Love is like the wind, you can't see it but you can feel it"

Soal hati ....

Wishing all a happy Monday and happy working, be it at office or home.  Those yang duduk rumah kena buat kerja juga kan, walaupun you are your own boss, doing things at your own time.  Owhhh...best nya.  Tak boleh, tak boleh, aku dah jadi jeles - dan tak baik untuk kesihatan minda.  Anyway, how was weekend?  Mine?  Sigh (dalam nada mengeluh).  As usual, a hectic one.  Tapi I had a good get together (open house and barbeque) at my sister's place in TM on Saturday night.  Most of us were there.  Semua ada partner, except aku, Sharos and Imi.  So kami la yang terlebih enjoy.  Aku and Sharos balik pun dah dekat pukul 1 pagi.  Wahhh... nasib baik tak kena halau dek tuan rumah.  I am supposed to upload pictures of the get together.  Tapi now waiting for kakak to send to me.  Kakak, cepat sikit hantar sementara otak masih mengingati details of those moments.  Siap boleh re-cap lagi dengan Imi semalam.  I  will write more of the get together once I get and able to upload the pictures.  Nanti boleh tengok siapa yang terlebih enjoy.

Was in the office not that early walaupun en. hasben kena ada kat Bangi for his golf game.  Di sebabkan dia yang lambat, aku tak le kena leter.  Ok la jugak.  At least tak spoil my morning.  Monday pulak tu.

Adik looked so unhappy bila aku bangun pagi tadi sampai lah when saying goodbye bila hantar dia ke sekolah.  I would like to think that it's because of the Bio paper today.  But it was so hard to comprehend as Biology has always been her favourite.  She will always try not to miss any of the school days yang ada subject Bio.  Deep down I knew it was something else.  Not the right time to feel that way I supposed.  I hope she remembers what I have said this morning.  All of it.  Adik, I am going to add this - and  for you to remember this sampai bila-bila.  You are the best thing that has ever happened to me.  Oppss...besides kakak (and abang).  Marah la pulak nanti.  Anyway, this is about you.  So I am just going to mention you.  Spending so much time with you, knowing you, seeing you, understanding you - makes me the luckiest mother on earth.  You are the best - and whoever comes into your life and hold your love will be the luckiest one.  Mummy akan selalu doakan the best for you.  Cheer up and concentrate on few more papers to go before the real exam comes.  We will decide later on the plan.  I know you miss him.

"Missing someone - he is the sun in your day, the wind in your sky, the waves in your ocean and the beat in your heart"

End of work week ....

Some pictures during the wedding submitted through e-mail by Rynn.  Pictures of her, her family and my girls.  Rynn is my colleague.  We work together, same profession in the same company for so many years.  And we still are colleagues till now.  Nak dijadikan cerita - we only recently found out that Rynn is married to my hasben's kaum kerabat.  Lebih kurang cousin lah jugak.  Anak-anak aku suka la sangat kat si Rynn ni.  They said Aunty Rynn cantik sangat.  Aku and Rynn kenal dah lama, tak pernah la aku puji Rynn cantik.  Anyway, dah anak-anak aku cakap macam tu, and bila tengok lama-lama I cannot disagree.  Rynn memang cantik and very friendly.  Untung Hasnol.  Opps... nama hasben si Rynn is Hasnol.   Hasnol yang penyanyi tu.  Ni lagu dia - mesti you all ingat.  Aku pun minat jugak lagu ni masa muda-muda dulu.  

Dok cerita pasal si Rynn and Hasnol, lupa pulak asal usul niat aku nak letakkan gambar-gambar yang Rynn hantar.  Well, here are the pictures.  

Rynn, kakak and Neesa Maisara

All girls, yang tak sempat posing tu my sis-in-law 

My girls and Rynn's family 

Adik and Neesa Maisara

Adik and Neesa

Adik and Rynn

Aku sebenarnya nak letak gambar-gambar raya tapi sampai sekarang belum berkesempatan.  Tengoklah during weekend kalau rajin.  Besok banyak open house kena pergi.  And tomorrow night, insyaAllah will be going for barbeque at my sister's house in TM.  My idea sebenarnya barbeque ni.  So kalau aku cancel, memang nahas aku!  Jenuh aku berjawab dengan adik-adik aku.  Lagipun dah rindu nak berkumpul ramai-ramai macam tu.  Dah lama rasanya tak buat.  Whatever the plans are, aku nak kena tengok juga time study adik.  Kesian kat dia nanti.

She loves food and I love her!!

This weekend will be my last with kakak - she's going back for her UPM stint next week - her final year.  Since she's not staying in the campus, have arranged for her to stay with my sister in BK.  Suka sangat la dia.  Ok, so I still be seeing her all weekends, sama ada dia balik DD atau aku pi BK.  Either way, we still jumpa.  Mhmm....

And for adik finally dah bermula the real trials - all the hardcore papers, starting from Physics today.  So weekend ni, adik akan jadi zombie with books .... Kira tak boleh dok suka-suka buat lame jokes with her - memang sah dia tak layan.  And rasanya, dah many days tak dengar her laughter.  Wait till she hears my plan and hope the plan works and that would inspired her.  She'll have butterflies again .....

"The miles apart means nothing when you have each other"

Thursday.....

Alhamdulillah for another day of our life.  A chance to feel His blessings, a chance to continuously find ways to be close to Him.  Syukur alhamdulillah.  

Dah nak hujung minggu.  Finishing of those tasks with datelines.  Lepas ni, aku ingat nak concentrate and finish off filing all documents.  Meja kat belakang aku dah penuh with documents yang kena masuk file.  Sebelum big boss tegur ada baiknya aku buat dulu.  Yang susahnya I can only be in the filing room when he is away.  Kalau dia ada susah sebab filing room is on the other side of my room.  Oh, ya, he will be travelling next week to Norway.  Mhmmm... Whatever I am having in mind right now... tak boleh, fullstop!  Aku kena update the filing system.  Bab ni, aku jeles sungguh kat adik-adik aku yang full-time dok rumah managing hasben, managing anak-anak.  Memang la letih, tapi you are your own boss.  You manage things back home at your own time.  Aku ni dah la kena pi ofis, balik rumah kena buat kerja rumah.  Bila tengok laundry basket yang dah setinggi aku (kira tinggi lah jugak), darah gemuruh jadi nya.  Sebab letih.  Yes, at the rate I am going, I will be old in no time.  Old in age and sihat, tak pe.  Masaalahnya, badan jadi letih dan tak bertenaga.  By the time aku letak kepala atas bantal, tak sempatpun nak cakap goodnight aku dah terlelap.  I need back my energy walaupun sikit.  Haish... mengeluh la pulak aku ni.  Tak baik, tak baik.  Astaghfirullah...  Whatever it is, Allah knows best.  I just have to re-adjust and re-manage things and takes life coolly...  Boleh, boleh, insyaallah...

Tak check pun dengan adik her agama paper today.  I can see that she had put in all her efforts - studying till late night and waking up early morning.  Aku tau kadang-kadang dia penat.  But I hope she can hang in there, all will be over soon.  InsyaAllah segala usaha, segala penat lelah akan berbaloi.  She misses her inspiration.  Mhmmm... I have a plan in mind to ease the 'angau'.  Hope it'll work.  For now, let it remain in mind for a while.  

"Distance means so little when someone means so much"

Today ....

A simple, non-thinking post.  Hari ni aku cipta rekod.  Sampai ofis seawal 6.45 am.  Security guard yang kerja semalam masa aku nak balik pun terkejut tengok aku pagi tadi!  Ceritanya kami terbangun lewat 5.15 am, tu pun sebab terkejut dengar adik's phone ringing.  Aku pun cepat2 turun prepare en. hasben's sahur sebab dia nak puasa jugak.  Lepas sahur je, dah subuh.  Tu yang jadi cepat keluar ke ofis sebab sesudah subuh semua dah siap.  Adik is not schooling today sebab tak de paper.  So en. hasben hantar aku terus ke KL.  Itu lah ceritanya - reason kenapa aku jadi tersangat awal ke ofis.  And the plan to start my routine at 4.30 am masih haywire, masih terbabas.  Dah pesan kat adik, next time when my alarm went off at 4.30, jangan layan bila aku kata 5 minutes, 5 minutes.  Bahaya sangat-sangat - percentage nak terbabas tersangatlah tinggi.  I need to re-start the routines.  Need to re-energise my inner strength.  I want to be close to Him.  Itu yang sebetulnya.  Insyaallah...

Adik and kakak at DJ today.  Bosan lah tu sebab kakak call aku tadi.  Selalunya kalau call mesti ada hal.  Duduk kat DJ kalau tak buat apa2 memang membosankan.  Selain study, tidor, makan, tengok TV - kena jugak cari some interesting things to do - facebooking, twitter-ing, whatsapp-ing not included ok.  Cuba la belajar memasak ke, mengemas ke, gardening ke..  Kata nak kahwin cepat!  Jadi engineer or "HR specialist", kerja-kerja rumah kena lah pandai jugak.  Nanti hasben nak makan nasi lemak sotong, takkan nak makan kat Old Town je kan.  And soalan aku kat adik semalam - "dia masih rindukan you?".  She has not answered me walaupun her looks confidently said "YES".  Wahhh...

"Distance is NOTHING when he is your EVERYTHING"

Time flies .....

17 Syawal dah.  Pantas masa berlalu.  Puasa sunat syawal belum pun aku lunaskan.  Few more days to go.  Ingat nak start last week, tapi busy with my nephew's wedding preparation and also adik suruh tunggu nak puasa sekali this week.  So begitulah adanya.  Gambar raya, gambar wedding will be uploaded when I have more time.  Tak sempat sangat sekarang.    The wedding?  The hall setting was awesome, memang ramai yang puji.  Aku macam nak putus kaki managing and over-seeing so many things.  Tapi alhamdulillah, we managed well.  I am happy to be able to do all that I can for those I loved.  Putting on record - wishing the young couple, Ierfan and Sara a blessed life and many, many, many years of happiness together.  Remember, I will always be here for you both.  

Ni dah masuk minggu ke dua at work, still bercelaru all timings.  Sleeping pattern masih haywire due to kepenatan.  So bila kat office, rasa letih terbawa-bawa.  All at wrong hours!  Memang kena do something nih!  Dulu-dulu memang superwoman.  Sekarang kena terima hakikat body and mind dah tak boleh terima bila terlalu dibebankan.  Nak upgrade pun dah tak boleh, sebab body and mind nanti jadi tak selari.  Lagi haru-biru!!! Anyway, trying to recover walaupun at a snail pace.  InsyaAllah....

Kakak dah habis her internship.  It's a free week for her this week.  Next week dah kena balik uni.  Adik?  The battle has begun.  All hardcore papers this week.  And she also has got to fight that emotional feelings, the feelings of missing him.  I know it is not easy - when she misses him so bad.  But I see that she managed it well, for now.  Alhamdulillah.  Once a while, she whispered what she feels.  Pernah melalui zaman-zaman sebegitu, aku cuba memahami.  Adik, we'll work out something.  That's my promise.  Now, fight this battle first.  You can do it, insyaAllah...

"Distance .... a test of how far love can travel"