Selamat berhari Jumaat....

Assalamualaikum wbt.  Kita bertazkirah serta ingat-mengingati sikit lah pagi ni.  Later when I have the time, I will share the normal daily happenings - insyaAllah.  

I think this is worth sharing ..


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Ponder and Practice ...........

Rasulullah SAW said "An intelligent person is one who is constantly thinking about and preparing for death". Thinking about it ... how does one prepare for death?  Read on....

By seeking knowledge of Islam.  So study about Allah, his Prophet {p.b.u.h}, of good deeds and evil deeds.  But knowledge itself is useless without .................

Practicing it.  Perform good deeds, small or big, and avoid all evil deeds.  But all performance is useless unless you are ....................

Sincere.  To do lillahi ta'ala.  But you will never achieve sincerely, as long as you do not have ............

True Faith (Iman).  You must ..

.. truly believe in Allah

.. truly be in awe of Allah

.. truly depend and ask only from Allah

.. truly  hope from Allah

.. truly fear Allah

.. truly put your trust in Allah

But such faith does not come from reading books or talking about Islam or listening to fiery speeches about Islam, it comes from ..........

Striving had in Allah's path (Jihad).  Jihad does not mean going around to convert the world to Islam.  It does not mean waving a sword at disbelievers showing them the 'terror' that Islam can inflict - it means fighting hard to cleanse the evil in yourselves -

.. the jealousy

.. the greed

.. the stinginess

.. the arrogance

.. the pride

.. the laziness

.. the hatred

.. the lack of faith

.. the stupidity

.. the blindness of the heart

.. the backbitting, and

.. all the teribble sins that we do day after day, year after year, until death comes calling

That is Jihad - a full-time job that will take all your life to complete.  But you will never start to strive for all these, until you begin to ................

Realize.  

.. Realize that you will die soon

.. Realize that you will be shown all your deeds (good and bad) on Judgement Day

.. Realize that Allah watches you all your life, and that no deed escapes His repayment

.. Realize that money, fame and property cannot buy your way into Heaven

.. Realize that only Iman and good deeds can

.. Realize that you are responsible for yourself

.. Realize that in the end, you are the one who will gain or lose 

So many people realized, and yet gone astray - why?  They have forgotten the most important thing in Islam ....................

Islam is about YOURSELF.   Correcting YOURSELF.  Cleansing YOURSELF.  Not about fighting with people or proving other people wrong.  In the grave ..

.. You will be asked about YOURSELF

.. What YOU did

.. What YOU said

.. What YOUR intention was

Then Allah will tell YOU, what YOUR final destination is.  Have you thought about yourself lately?  What you have done, what you are doing, what you should be doing?  

May Allah out of His mercy bless us with the ability to do so.  InsyaAllah....

1 Syaaban 1433 ....

7.38 am.  In the office.  Today dah Thursday, aku kena clear all work before weekend.  Kena, kena, tak leh alasan2 lagi.  Some new hire profile form aku kena prepare and submit - dah dua hari tertangguh sebab tak cukup info.  Haishhh... tak leh nak blame sapa2 - it's my fault sebab tak follow up.  Kena re-program my timeline nih.  Dah a little bit haywire...

Anyway, syukur alhamdulillah - it is a bright day today, literally bright.  Thanks to that someone. So somebody's mood pun up sikit and a nice feeling to start the day.  Our morning routine starts as per normal. The biological clock woke me up at 4.00 but the biological lullaby says - 5 minutes, 5 minutes.  So singing together with the biological lullaby, aku pejam mata sat sampai pukul 4.30.  Cepat2 bangun sebab teringat nak puasa.  Kejut adik, did our normals, then aku turun for my sahur (pelik kata sahur - aku kata soq sebab aku orang Kedah).  My soq consists of a glass of air zamzam, a small bowl of oats, a glass of warm water.  Eh, tak lupa all my supplements for the day.  Adik punya is normally air zamzam and whatever she wants to take.  Oats dia tak mau - dia kata her tummy nanti upset.  And also her supplements which aku paksa dia ambik. Rasa sungguh tenang dapat duduk berzikir sementara tunggu subuh and finishing off my quran reading.  3 more juzuk and hopefully boleh habis before Ramadhan.  So Ramadhan aku boleh start new with the girls.  Dah janji dah, hopefully we can make that happen - insyaAllah.  

1 Syaaban hari ni.  Selamat berpuasa pada yang berpuasa sunat and mudah-mudahan rahmat Allah swt sentiasa bersama kita.  Cepat sungguh masa berlalu.  Makin dekat rasanya langkah menuju kepadaNya.  

enough to cheer up someone's day

Cakap pasal masa - ada orang tu suka masa pantas berlalu and is looking forward.  I know why and what is it ... I wish you both the best and may Allah bless you with this dream and make it real.  Always keep your promises and kena doa banyak-banyak.  

Syukur alhamdulillah for another day of our life...

"Never shed tears because the sun has set, for you will not be able to see the stars" 
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                             

Hari ni...

Yes, I owe someone a post today.  Macam selalu, woke her up at 4.30 for our normal ibadah routine - alhamdulillah.  She doesn't talk much.  Left her to do her own things.  It was a gloomy morning with deadly silence.  Literally dead silence!  Fatso pun takut nak dekat.  Tengok dari jauh je.  She came down 6.20 am.  I knew she cried.  Semalam kata she cannot cry because that would make him sad.  Pagi ni lain lah pulak.  I am speechless.  Nak bagi ceramah free pun dah tak larat.  Lagipun timing tak betul.  It would spoil the day for us.    Maybe I should do it later tonight, tengok mood both of us.  Nak kena construct a proper text in mind so I do not say the wrong things.  Banyak on my mind sebenarnya.  During my  times those days, I do not remember missing someone that bad, or maybe I did.  Ya, maybe I did.  Cuma, I had to manage my own feelings in my own way sebab I cannot talk to anyone at home.  Nak cakap dengan mak, ayah?  Memang drama jadinya nanti!  Tak berani aku.  Adik, you are lucky - I am always here for you - at all times.  I know it is hard to say goodbye -  but always remember, it is not the end - it is just a way of saying you'll miss each other and treasure each other more.  Think of the best times, you'll feel better.  Macam ni lah adik, zikir banyak-banyak and baca quran - ingat Allah.  Mummy dah cakap - minta dari Allah yang terbaik.  You know what I meant, right?  Memang perasaan seorang mak agaknya - bila anak-anak ada masaalah, bila anak-anak susah hati, bila sakit, bila sedih - kita pun turut rasa the same pain.  

Sampai kat office pun lewat pagi ni.  Tak tau pasai apa.  Rushing to finish off June remuneration pack, ingat nak submit pagi ni.  Tapi sampai sekarang tak siap lagi.  Aku dah jadi macam buntu pulak.  Ada berpuluh2 e-mail yang marked unread dalam mailbox aku.  Semua tu perlukan actions to be taken, rasanya kena finish off by today kot.  Penin, penin....

Plan to leave early today, tapi adik kata, she'll be going to some friend's house to prepare for the cooking competition this Saturday and so she will not be home till after 6 maybe.    If that's the case, aku tunggu lepas maghrib saja lah baru balik.  At least I can finish off my work.  Talking about the cooking competition, she and another friend were chosen to represent their school.  Macam2 dia nih.  Seingat aku, semua activities yang dia involve, aku pun jadi penat sebab indirectly aku kena involve and ada yang directly juga.  Oppps...sebab dia anak aku, so no regrets... Walau penat, glad I was able to be there for her all these while.

Dah, dah, get back to work...   

Those days....

those carefree days....

how time flies....

learning the beautiful things in life....

"Love is two souls perfectly fits each other"

Suddenly ....

She used to think 

.... that love was just a lie

.... that love was just a dream

.... that love was unreal

.... that love was just a fantasy

.... and that love was just a fairy tale

How wrong she was

.... until that first hello

.... until that first smile

.... when he walked straight 

.... into her life

.... and into her heart

She fell in love with his smiles, with his laughs

.... he did with hers too

.... his eyes, his presence, his warmth

.... gives her butterflies

.... and takes her breath away

Together they paint the canvas of love

.... together they share the magic

.... the beautiful emotions

.... together they create happiness from a simple life

.... into a life with great meaning

She knew now that loving him isn't just a dream

.... that loving him isn't a lie 

.... that loving him isn't a fantasy

.... that loving him isn't just a fairy tale

.... it is all a dream became true

"You can't make someone love you, all you can do is be someone who can be loved and the rest is up to the person to realize your worth"

Assalamualaikum wbt...

Haishhh!... 8.01 minit baru jejak kaki kat pintu office.  Lewat ikut standard aku.  Pasai apa lewat?  Tak dak jawapan.  Ada orang tu dah jadi kan hari ni hari ponteng sedunia dia.   Kami keluar rumah time macam biasa saja.  Dropped her at MIL's house and then off to KL.  Owhh.. aku tau kenapa lewat sebab aku yang kena drive.  En hubby ngantuk, dia nak tidog dalam kereta.  Aku sebagai pemandu yang berhemah dan bersopan di jalan raya telah drive ikut kelajuan yang ditetapkan oleh gomen and jpj, signal di setiap selekoh dan setiap kali nak overtake keta2 lain (rasanya keta2 lain yang dok overtake kot) - ni nak tunjuk betapa berhemahnya aku pagi ni.  Buleh dapat award dari jpj dak?  Apapun, pemandu berhemah ni dengan bangga dirinya selamat sampai di KL, then kejut en. hubby suruh take over the car and pemandu berhemah ni naik ke office.  Jumpa a friend, tanya habag sikit je. Aku kata "nanti kita sembang, aku dah lambat".  Dia tengok jam - agaknya dia pun pelik sebab masa tu belum pukul 8.   Hahh.. panjang citer.

Terjaga for our normal routine lewat sikit - 5.00 am.  Huishhh.. lewat banyak tu!  Aku pujuk hati sendiri - tak pa lah for as long as before subuh.  Nak train anak aku - esok2 dah tak duduk dengan aku, at least bangkit awai2 pagi dah jadi routine.  Mana lah tau,  anak2 pompuan ni kot nanti2 kena dok dengan mother-in-law.  

hari ponteng sedunia - tu pasai la buleh senyum

Mek ni tak pi sekolah sebab dia kata tak de science subjects today, so dia nak study and revise kat rumah.  Aku sebagai mak yang 'prihatin' meng-ok-kan je.  Aku dok interview dia pasal her term exam results - syukur alhamdulillah.  So far memang aku tengok she worked hard.  Lagipun dia dah ada new 'motivator'. Bagus gak sebenarnya.   And I am glad to be able to realize some people's dream and make them happy.  Boleh tidog dak semalam?  She is on cloud number nine again and again....

Dah, dah, aku nak start kerja.. ada satu task yang amat susah.  Since yesterday aku dok pikiag the format - sampai la ni belum tau how to do it... mampus aku, before 10 kena submit.   Good day to all.... 

Kawan lama....

Got a phone call from my long lost friend.  Mungkin dah lebih dari 20 tahun kami lost contact.  We lost contact selepas both of us got married and ada anak-anak.  Sebok dengan laki, sebok dengan anak-anak, sebok dengan kerja - we moved on separately just like that.  Ada sekali kot aku pernah cari dia, when I was so down and depressed.  Lepas tu tak ada dah.  Bukan apa, aku tak nak bebankan dia dengan masaalah aku.  Lagi dok bercerita lagi kusut.  Sebenagnya bila dia call tadi - aku tak kenai suara dia.  Segan nak tanya.  Dia suruh teka.  Haishh...dia ni, nak main teka2 pulak.  Dah la aku banyak kerja.  Tapi ok gak - dapat membantu minda aku jap.  Aku cari jalan terbaik - kami sembang2 pasai laki dia, pasai parents dia.  Aku terrerrrr - aku dapat jawapan.  Husband dia nama H.  Parents dia masih kat Perlis.  So confirm dia ni CP.  Gumbiranya aku dapat meneka dengan jayanya.....

But her call does not bring good news.  Dia nak berpisah dengan husband dia.  Banyak cerita disebalik decisionnya.  I respected her decision - gave her some advice if she wants to reconsider.  Anak2 pun dah besag - eldest dah 25 years old.  Tapi hanya dia mengetahui apa yang terjadi dalam hidup dia.  Dia yang memikul beban tu.  Sebab aku banyak kerja, we hung up with a promise to keep in touch.  My dear friend, I am always here if you need someone to talk to.  Wish peace and happiness awaits you in whatever your decision.  Miss those days ... the best times of our life..  Jumpa soon, insyaAllah...

Ok, back to work....

Monday blues ....

7.40 am.  Got in the office.  Lewat ahh.. Too many things to be done this morning.  Got to clear and set my mind straight.  Mula-mula clear my desk first.  Work from last Friday atas meja belum habis clear lagi.  

Adik worked me up at 4.30 - my heart says "wake up jangan malas" (kira bagus dah tu) tapi my body says "5 minutes, 5 minutes - tido, tido". Haishhh... tak larat sungguh nak berdebate pagi2 buta.  Agak2 sapa aku ikut?  Apapun I was wide awake by 4.49 am Kira ok lah tu.  I need to have my normal ibadah routine done for a good start of the day.  It was all very quiet this morning.  Adik tak banyak cakap. I knew why. Trying to be as understanding as possible, aku pun tak buat unnecessary conversation, just the important ones.  Went down to make drinks for en. hubby and see that adik had her supplements and breakfast.  Replenished Fatso's food and clear the litter box.  We left home by 6.35. 

Ok, got to go get my work started.

Haishhhh... it was definitely a blue Monday!

"Distance between two hearts is not an obstacle, it is a beautiful reminder of how strong feelings can be"