Cikgu Zurina ......

Ucapan khas hari lahir buat buat adik aku, Cikgu Zurina di Kajang. Semoga Allah sentiasa merahmati dan memberkati usia dan segala usaha dalam menjalani kehidupan sebagai seorang isteri, ibu dan pendidik. Cikgu Zurina seorang yang kuat dan kental semangatnya. Salah satu sebab dia boleh menjadi seorang 'cikgu'. Bukan mudah nak manage tadika islam, buat she did it. Seingat aku juga, dah lima tahun tadikanya beroperasi. Perbualan beberapa hari lepas membayangkan niatnya untuk membuka sebuah lagi tadika islam. Sebagai kakak, aku bangga dengan pencapaiannya. Semoga dipermudahkan cita-cita dan usahanya itu.

Nana, happy birthday. May Allah bless you with all His love, care and luck and may you achieve everything you desire in life. Wishing you a sweet and happy birthday.

Dalam kenangan .... dan al-fatihah...

Bila aku balik kampung many months back, aku managed to snap this picture of motor ayah. A picture of loneliness.... Since mak left to stay in KL, we had to put the bike in the house, under the staircase. It would stay there until sesiapa balik kampung and gunakan. Selalunya my brother or brother-in-law would be the ones riding it. Whoever spent more on the repairs would claim ownership, I guess! Tak pernah la rasa nak berebut, tak tau bawak motor pun. Anyway, ni la dia motor ayah. Could still picture him dengan motor kesayangan dia ni. After ayah passed away, mak jadi emotional bab motor ni, dia tak bagi anyone pun take-over. Yes, we understood her perfectly. She wanted to keep ayah's belongings and memories. Tapi for how long? The motorbike, lama-lama tak guna akan rosak juga. So maybe the right time came - my brother's bike (involved in an accident) dah tak boleh guna. So dia balik kampung and ambil motor ayah. Motor yang memang menyimpan banyak kenangan. Mak izinkan finally..... Aku pun cuma dapat tahu yang motor tu di ambil after a 'by-the-way' conversation with my sis. Anyway, it's gone. Now the bike has found a permanent home in Tanjung Malim, no longer being left alone, unkept and unused in Sg. Korok.

And today genap 7 tahun ayah meninggal. The memories of subuh of 20 January 2004 came flashing back. Tak mungkin aku lupa saat tu. The fears, the tears and finally the sadness of seeing ayah leaving this world, leaving us to meet his Creator. Tujuh tahun berlalu, doa buat ayah tetap tidak akan putus, insyaAllah. Semoga Allah swt mencucuri rahmat ke atas roh ayah dan dikurniakan tempat yang terbaik di sisiNya. Al-fatihah....

"Mengingati kematian dapat menunjukkan seseorang akan kenikmatan dunia yang bersifat sementara, menahan dirinya untuk tidak menginginkan kehidupan dunia yang serba megah pada masa hadapan dan mengurangkan lamunan tentang kenikmatannya."

Health is wealth...

Bila dah menginjak usia senja, macam-macam penyakit akan menjelma. Dulu masa muda, mungkin kita tidak ambil kisah keadaan sihat sakit tubuh badan. Hari ni demam, esok dah baik. Aku masih ingat, kecik2 dulu dalam dok kena demam campak masih sanggup pi main dalam hujan. Mak marah - takut scar demam campak tak hilang, aku tetap tak kisah. Demam macam mana pun, measles ka, chicken pox ka, mana boleh let go off all the fun playing in the rain, dalam hutan belakang rumah, buat pondok bawah pokok nyioq, celah pokok pisang. The best adventure! Kalau demam dok tidoq saja, mana ada thrill. Demam pun boleh lambat baik. Anak-anak kita sekarang kalau demam, langsung tak mau dan tak boleh keluar rumah. Berbungkuih dalam sweater, dalam blanket macam hantu bungkuih, nak tunggu demam kebah. Tak tau lah which is better. Honestly, I would prefer those old days, my kid days.

During those younger years, growing up years, aku termasuk dalam golongan yang aktif, hyper mungkin. Kalau body tak go on physical activities, my mind would still be working. Zaman sekolah - then came the working era. Remembered I put all my efforts, my energy. Tak payah la nak ulas how the efforts, the energy was put. Beribu percent rasanya! And today, masuk tahun 2011, I am still working, still putting all efforts and energy (little energy left, I supposed). Those little ones still counted and I will be drained out by end of the day. That was work I am talking about. Energy drained out dealing with home affairs belum kira. Day in, day out, sometimes dealing with the same issues, cuma hari yang berbeza. Letih badan tak tercerita, tapi berpegang kepada amanah yang diberiNya, syukur alhamdulillah I can still be where I am, do what I want to do.

Health is wealth. Are we too much into pursuing wealth which will end up in the process of losing precious health? Is the frantic efforts of making more wealth really worth the price of losing health? Bottomline is health is wealth simply because a healthy life is life in all its abundance, joy and fullness. Without health, life would be full of anxiety and fear. Without wealth??? Tepuk dada tanya selera.

Semoga kita semua terus dikurnia Allah swt kesihatan yang baik dan kesempatan untuk beramal dengan sebaik mungkin. Semoga kita termasuk dalam golongan orang-orang yang beriman dan istiqamah dalam keimanan. Semoga kita dijauhkan dari putus asa dari rahmatNya dan jadilah kita orang yang sentiasa bersyukur kepadaNya.

Ameen....

Happy birthday ...

Happy 3rd birthday, dearest sweet Soffeya. May you grow up to be the best girl - inside and out - the way your mother and all of us wished for. Here's wishing you the most happy day - perfect and magical in every way. Sending you special wishes and big hugs.... Happy birthday dear.

Sisters....

Adik aku call - cerita adik beradik - she visited another sister who is staying in her neighbourhood and found out that this sister of ours dok plan nak beli rumah nun di area BJ. So cerita berkisaq pasai kisah juai-beli rumah la kaedahnya. Deep down aku dapat qasa adik aku ni sedih akan kemungkinan kehilangan seoghang kakak or to her - a friend. Selalunya di situ lah tempat dia mengadu dan mengeluh-kesah hidup dia. I told her - akan always ada perubahan dalam hidup - sepatutnya ada - dan sepatutnya kita bersedia mental dan fizikal menghadapi apa jua bentuk perubahan. Tu yang mematangkan diri. Sedih kehilangan tu memang lah ada. Allah dah jadikan perasaan tu dalam diri kita, cuma cara kita menangani akan membentuk kehilangan tu menjadi sama kenangan manis atau pahit. Alamak, over lah pulak aku ni. Apapun, I am happy for my sis kalau dia betui2 jadi beli rumah yang di'ceritakan' tu. About time pun. Psst... sebenarnya makcik tu tak pun kata dia jadi beli. Cuma dia tengah planning. I have to agree with my sis - we all adik beradik ni penuh dengan emosi. Belum apa2, dah plan what kind of emotion to potray! Another part which I love about my sisters - senang nak faham sikap dia orang. Love them as always....

Still in the office - leaving in 30 minutes. No, leaving now. Told hubby be down in 20 minutes. It's more than 20 minutes now...

Back at work....

After more than ten days away from work, I am officially back in the office today.... My wish? Allah knows best. I wished for a lot of things, never mind which ones came through, which ones doesn't. Wishing for a blessed 2011 insyaAllah. Spoke to mak tadi, dah few days tak dengar suara dia. Rindu mak? Yes, tu yang talipon tu. Dah lama juga tak jumpa mak. Will try to see her this weekend, insyaAllah. Meeting my sis and hubby for dinner in a short while. Leaving the office now.